Staying Happy- Difficult!

Is there possibly one place in world where you can hide yourself? Beneath and beyond all eyes and worries which seem to surround you all day and night?

It is one of those days when I am feeling too low to even speak to anyone or in fact to admit anyone's presence around me.

I am trying hard to smile at everything nice around me, laugh hard at the smallest silly thing, enjoy every possible event, spend time with others, keep myself busy to maximum extent unless I'm tired enough and all sorts of things to keep myself calm in mind and just not be loathing around in unhappiness, in deprivation of love and in misery of tensions!

I hate myself when I realize that I'm no more myself. I hate crying to myself at night, I hate just thinking about my good times almost every time. It seems there is one part of my brain which never rests, is never ever quiet enough to let me get out of all this.

I am tired. Tired of pretending to be happy and alright. My soul screams at me for not being happy, but there is hardly anything left that I can do to be so.

Now, it all depends on my dear Goddess Durga. If she would want me to be happy she will definitely bring in a miracle that I am looking for.

Bless me! 

Complicated Life!!

How possibly complicated can life be?

Every time it brings a new question to you!  It seems that for the whole of our life we just keep on solving the questions posed to us by life and choose the best answer to it. Tragedy is, if we choose the wrong answer, it has to be ourselves who face the consequences.
Hypothetically, it should be life and its force guiding us in living to the best of our life rather than just wandering around in thoughts and amongst in finding the answers!
I just wish to find the best answers to my life which has been complicated now for years!

suggestions invited.

Me on Long Distance Relationship!

I wonder how can only relationships which keep two people in contacts (physically or through technology) for most of the time can only be successful and not the ones where distance is too much and still people are together in their hearts and memories?What I believe is every relation can survive misunderstandings, differences, distances and time lapse too only if the people involved really want to be together. It is always no matter what we can make it happen!!One of my friend recently got married even though she had a really long distance relationship for almost two years. but it was their efforts, willingness and love that they managed to be together at the end of the day.it is not at all necessary that you talk every day or week or share every little thing that is happening around. What is important is that you share yourself with the other person with all your trust and love and maintain patience with everyday differences.I am no master in "Love and Long Distance Relationship" philosophy but would definitely would love to know other's perspective.  I believe in never ending love, in God and in a proverb "The best thing is yet to happen, so hope for the best".Cheers guys!