Happiness- for self or others???

Recently I had been in a turmoil- as to how we stay happy. Is it the way to keep doing good for others, or do things according to them and be happy seeing them happy? 'Them'  here can be family, friends or else. Or is it we do what we want to do? that can make us happy. It is seriously a confusion, at least for me, for we feel sad when we see them sad but it cannot be always true vice versa. 

I feel I was wrong before in keeping myself happy in other's happiness. I myself too want to be happy just for myself. Without compromising on my terms, I want things to happen in my way. I believe the taste of that happiness will be different.

Lest as said, I look forward to be just happy!!!! :)

Choices??

It is really hard to say that we live our lives on our terms and according to the choices we made. Of course, when we are young and full of enthusiasm, we always take the responsibility of making good and bad choices and live up to it.

I might not be that old, but lately I have realized, actually we really do not make any choice of our own. 90% of the times it is life which brings to you what is actually to be meant in your life. We think- "Oh my Gosh! what a great choice of a career or partner we made.", "We are so lucky to decide on this.", etc etc. But all this time we are living in an illusion to be honest.

The rest of 10% is mostly eaten up by the brain wash and feeding by family, friends and so ans so. I think we are just allowed to decide on only 2% of the decision, which is likely to without an option and just a willingness to take what is offered by life.

Let's try to accept it as early as we can to avoid any illusions and misconceptions.

Good Luck with life!!

Hurt!!!

Hurt is something you cannot define in words!

It is a deep feeling which crushes you from inside, more and more, every time you get hurt. And when you are hurt in "Love", it's worst of all. When you feel that heaviness in your heart and just can't stop thinking about "what just went wrong?", you cannot hold onto be normal. And the people around us try to console us with words like 'let it go', 'its happens', 'I understand' and all that... but the truth is- when hurt takes chances on them even they are in same shoes as ours!!!

I know I am hurt right now. And I know no one can ever get what's on my mind and how I feel?

But I only have to deal with it. Only I can heal myself walking along the path of faith, rest is just a waste.

The only point I want to say here is- never ever hurt anyone. I understand we are all humans and can hurt others intentionally and unintentionally- but atleast you can make other person understand your point of view in a calmer way so that they don't get hurt much. 

Everyone is special and so are their feelings. So Respect them, love them and don't hurt them.

Give Happiness, Stay Happy!!!!

Staying Happy- Difficult!

Is there possibly one place in world where you can hide yourself? Beneath and beyond all eyes and worries which seem to surround you all day and night?

It is one of those days when I am feeling too low to even speak to anyone or in fact to admit anyone's presence around me.

I am trying hard to smile at everything nice around me, laugh hard at the smallest silly thing, enjoy every possible event, spend time with others, keep myself busy to maximum extent unless I'm tired enough and all sorts of things to keep myself calm in mind and just not be loathing around in unhappiness, in deprivation of love and in misery of tensions!

I hate myself when I realize that I'm no more myself. I hate crying to myself at night, I hate just thinking about my good times almost every time. It seems there is one part of my brain which never rests, is never ever quiet enough to let me get out of all this.

I am tired. Tired of pretending to be happy and alright. My soul screams at me for not being happy, but there is hardly anything left that I can do to be so.

Now, it all depends on my dear Goddess Durga. If she would want me to be happy she will definitely bring in a miracle that I am looking for.

Bless me! 

Complicated Life!!

How possibly complicated can life be?

Every time it brings a new question to you!  It seems that for the whole of our life we just keep on solving the questions posed to us by life and choose the best answer to it. Tragedy is, if we choose the wrong answer, it has to be ourselves who face the consequences.
Hypothetically, it should be life and its force guiding us in living to the best of our life rather than just wandering around in thoughts and amongst in finding the answers!
I just wish to find the best answers to my life which has been complicated now for years!

suggestions invited.

Me on Long Distance Relationship!

I wonder how can only relationships which keep two people in contacts (physically or through technology) for most of the time can only be successful and not the ones where distance is too much and still people are together in their hearts and memories?What I believe is every relation can survive misunderstandings, differences, distances and time lapse too only if the people involved really want to be together. It is always no matter what we can make it happen!!One of my friend recently got married even though she had a really long distance relationship for almost two years. but it was their efforts, willingness and love that they managed to be together at the end of the day.it is not at all necessary that you talk every day or week or share every little thing that is happening around. What is important is that you share yourself with the other person with all your trust and love and maintain patience with everyday differences.I am no master in "Love and Long Distance Relationship" philosophy but would definitely would love to know other's perspective.  I believe in never ending love, in God and in a proverb "The best thing is yet to happen, so hope for the best".Cheers guys!

First words of love!

The below is dedicated to my love of life! I wrote this for him just after few talks and till then we had not seen each other-


It was in me for long but never got a chance to pull them altogether in words. And now when I have it, I'm glad to have known you.
Its been so nice the way we communicate formally or informally. I love the way it is.


I find my life worth of it when you are there and I'm afraid that if I will be lucky enough to have you here for long.


I know our life is long enough and to which we count to long for "FOUR DAYS", but still would always cherish all the moments and talks that we shared or had it just in our minds.


Its really difficult to say what I actually feel for you and how do I need to deal with it but just this is what going to be the rest of my life. And to be very true and honest I will be contended enough even if I loose you in this life's long run because for me what matters the most is being myself with you and of course tolerating and caressing you as you are.


I ma happy to be what I am and you are most welcome to take your minds into actions, never to bother me much.


Thank you for being there with the tiniest of attention and biggest of impression. Again, I'm running out of words!


"Never ending roads & thoughts lead me no where;
 My destination & destiny lies within YOU!"